it never occured to me that people would actually read my blog. who knew the thoughts of an emerging young professional (not to mention a young man) would be so interesting. Over the last few months i've given regular updates from my trip in china as well as from my personal life. the reason i'm writing this is because i've just realized how 'personal' i've become on my blogs. i think blogs should summarize life and also provide a few 'knee deep' insights but nothing more. I hope i don't get carried away with my words. nevertheless i can't hold my thoughts in:

I'm concerned (and i know i shouldnt be) about misinterpretation of information. This blog's purpose was to get a direct perspective from my life. There are many people in my life, many have not seen certain aspects of it and might be shocking to some. It's weird...somehow my parent's friends know about this blog which makes me think 'what can i say on this blog?'. Who is the blog for? What is appropriate?

You know, sometimes i just stand still and wonder what is going on in my life. you know thoughts that i know everyone gets like 'am i happy with where i'm going? do l like who ive become? i should do this...i should do that". What kind of job do i want? Why do i want this job? Does it bring me happiness? "It's not the job that brings you happiness, it's the money from the job that's supposed to make you happy". I'm trying to block those Capitalist motives out of my head. The sole pursue of wealth as a means to happiness is not the way to go!

as u can tell...there are many things going on in my mind...way too many. sure on the outside it might seem calm, but on the inside it's an endless bee hive..that doesnt turn off! ..?